She is only five, and I'm already losing her innocence and her sweetness and her charm.
She doesn't have a set schedule. Half the days, she doesn't even know who will pick her up from school. Sometimes she gets home, and I am so tired that I just want to lay down on the couch, so I turn on the TV, and she is absorbed by Spongebob for two hours. Then we sort of eat dinner. Then we sort of do homework. Then we sort of go to bed, if we think to remember to do so. Nothing is scheduled, nothing makes sense, and I feel completely lost, so I can't even imagine how a five year old must be feeling.
She isn't listening in school. Her teacher has always warned me of her behavior. Today, one of my best friends informed me that my kid "sassed" her. We can't go a day without hearing "YOU HATE ME!" or "I HATE YOU!" or both.
I want to get back on track. I was really on the way to being a fantastic mom, and then I lost sight of the important things. I'm losing her, because I've lost myself.
I need guidance and support, so I can offer the same to my kid, who is full of potential, and who I am failing miserably.