Thursday, July 22, 2010

I suck

Here's another way you don't want to spend an hour. Coming back to my blog to give me a chance to vaguely amuse you, and seeing that that same stupid Post Title is there. Sorry all.

Okay, so I'm in the midst of a crisis of faith. I want to be home with my kids so so so so so bad, especially now that the summer is over, and Lennon is starting school again, but I also know that I'm probably halfway done with the school, and I should stop complaining and just get through it already.

The hard part, for me, is convincing myself to keep going full steam ahead, knowing that it's likely I will end the program doing customer service sales.

Nope. Can't say that. I should say positive things, like, "I will end the program doing customer service sales and buying myself a Cat Poster that says 'Hang In There' in braille."


Renee, no.

No, I'll do SOMETHING that requires a Master's degree. Just what, I don't know yet. Library Science is less likely, because the university that offers it in-state just happens to not offer it this year. And VR won't let me wait it out. So I'll just pursue that on my own.

I'm thinking about Early Childhood Education. I think I'm going to get a lot of eye-rolling and lack of support for that choice, but it's what fits my life right now, and I could use a degree like that in libraries later on. Plus, I could use that kind of degree to teach preschool in my home or something. I don't really know. I feel like I haven't thought this out. I just know I'd be interested in the curriculum, it would fulfill my obligation to VR, and it's something I could do with my kids.

I am so exactly the reason Republicans hate State programs.


Anonymous said...

Renee, I would love you even if you got a degree in Early Childhood what-not. A small part of me might really hate you, but I would be able to suppress it when we were together.
P.S. I know you can get through school. Especially with someone awesome watching your chilluns.

diane said...

Keep going, cat-poster lady.

You don't need anyone's permission or blessing to go for early childhood ed. And if anyone doesn't like it, they get the bird.

Eric said...

Why do they keep pushing customer service when it's almost completely outsourced?

Becky said...

Follow your passion! I didn't enjoy the whole process but sure am grateful for the chance to get a degree through the system.

The Wizzle said...

Seriously, as far as I can tell, part of being a parent is that you're never satisfied again. You need a break from your children, to grow as an adult, to discover yourself, etc - but then you get it and you miss them, you worry about them, you feel guilty for not being there for them every moment.

Nevermind career/vocational/life calling decision woes, which I personally am not ready to touch with a ten-foot-pole. You've got a lot on your plate. Luckily, you are smart, funny, and awesome. That should go a long way in your favor.

Katy said...

Why don't you persue something with your writing? I'm not knocking education at ALL, I just think it would be a shame for you to not do something with that writing talent of yours.